Guilty

Why do I feel guilty about everything I do, ever? At the moment, i'm spending alot on silly things that cheer me up (match worn footballshirts). I'm comfortably debt free now, yet I always feel guilty about about it. I'm not even catholic, so that can't explain it. They also have a good resale value. Why feel guilty then?

This is what life is

Evidently Chickentown by John Cooper Clarke

the fucking pubs are fucking dull

the fucking clubs are fucking full

of fucking girls and fucking guys

with fucking murder in their eyes

a fucking bloke is fucking stabbed

waiting for a fucking cab

you fucking stay at fucking home

the fucking neighbors fucking moan

keep the fucking racket down

this is fucking chicken town

the fucking pies are fucking old

the fucking chips are fucking cold

the fucking beer is fucking flat

the fucking flats have fucking rats

the fucking clocks are fucking wrong

the fucking days are fucking long

it fucking gets you fucking down

evidently chicken town

a weird year

This year has seen alot of changes for me. I moved from living with my brother to a flatmate who steals from me, got a new job in a medical records department of a hospital, went to Mexico to see a compulsive liar in one of the most heartbreaking experiences of my life yet I still love her, dated a sociopath after that. Crazy, what will be next I wonder. This song sums up the year I think, depressing music always cathes my mood and helps me deal with the situations that I face. Next step: out of depression.