Looking for inspiration; rambling

I've not written in 4 months. Why not, Mark, you may ask. The answer isn't probably too comforting. I'm looking for inspiration. At any given time, my muse goes away, and I look to find her. I'm stuggling though, I read books but can only stomach an hour and a half maximum at any given time, struggling to digest the information in. At the moment, I have three books on the go. One for the tube, and two for home. You would think literary tomes about Neil Young, the Moon and Blood Meredian would be fuel for my blog quest for writing salvation. You would be wrong. I haven't picked up Shakey, Jimmy McDonough's opus about Neil Young up for weeks, reminding myself that I need to have a better understanding of the master's vast back catalogue. I've read up to McDonough's accounts of Harvest , a period of Young's music and life I feel well versed in, but not quite having a better understanding of his Ditch peroiod, I put the book down to further develop my knowledge, getting as far as Rust Never Sleeps. Now, for the unanitiated, Rust Never Sleep was Young's 1979 album that channeled his fear of being "dead weight", and of being a dinosaur to the modern trends in music. Most point to the track "Hey Hey, My My" as the mission statement of this message. While to some extent that's, I think the next track "Thrasher" fleshes out his justification's for his career trajectory. Rejecting former band mates he feels are irrelevant, he shapes his own drive to not to rust (pardon the phrase). I'm looking forward to reading what McDonough makes of it, though knowing his views so far i'm sure he has a far greater respect for the second side, backed by Crazy Horse. Moon Dust by Andrew Smith is something I would dream of writing. Part history, part travelogue, part gonzo journalism and part memoir about what the Apollo mission meant to him, I dream of having Smith's command for metaphors and vivid descriptions. I'm 40 pages into it so far, and I feel I know more about the mission than I did before, Smith being like most of us a layperson to the whole event. His inspiration came out of interviewing one of the astronaunt's on the 30 anniversary of Apollo 11's launch, triggering childhood excitment at the new age that was never to be. A nice inspiration to have. Oh what do you know? They do provide some inspiration. Maybe the meta theme of this post is catharic.